Today just feels weird. 
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Today we hit our first “milestone” of sorts since Harper’s passing. 
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Today Harper would be 1 month old. 
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I have to be honest- the last month of my life has been consumed by thoughts of my daughter. There is no where I can go, nothing I can do, no words others can say to pull her out of my thoughts. She is the first thing that comes to mind as I wake and the thing I grieve as my head hits my pillow each night.

I am learning to live in my “new normal.” As we head to the cemetery this evening to spend some time with our baby girl, I am clinging to God’s promise that this world is not my home. An everlasting home has been prepared for us. A place where suffering and death is no more. What joy it is to think that Harper is there waiting for us. 💕👼🏻 #rememberharper #harperjanevanhal#hudthestudjames #henryjackvanhal

“This world is not our permanent home; we are looking forward to a home yet to come.” --Hebrews 13:14

-A